24 November 2008, 5:03 pm
Hi everyone, I dont even know where to start. I am 26 years old, and I am expecting a boy (13 weeks). It´s our first son. I should be happy... but my ob/gyn told me today that I looked depressed and recommended a psychiatrist. I do have been feeling depressed: I am living in a foreign country for the past 2 years, all of my family but my husband are 3 planes away from me, I was not planning on having a baby now, I have a degree in Business but I was going back to school to study English because I want to be a writer and I was succeeding on it, but it wont be possible to do that now... I can´t quit my job because I´m the one with the insurance, I dislike my job every day more and more and I can´t go back to my country because I love my husband and I don´t want to leave him. My family can´t visit as often because the ticket is like 800 bucks per person... I cry a lot every 2 days or so and there are days when I don´t want to even get off bed. I feel like a failure, like everything I was trying not to be as a woman is happening now no matter how much I tried to prevent it and be successful in life. There is not much my husband can do to help, he says I shouldnt go to a psychiatrist because he or she will only tell me that I am the only one who can help myself... and I think he is right. I almost have no friends here and I can´t go out much because it´s winter and I am always nauseated and constipated, I just don´t feel like going out. I do not want to take depression drugs. I don´t think I ever suffered from this. I usually look for the positive things of life and try to find a way out of sadness or boredom. I have been anxious about other stuff in my life but this pregnancy is like the major thing that I don´t know how I will do it without my family around... All I would like to hear is that I am not alone - I dont know any other pregnant women in my area or situation, I live in Lubbock, TX- someone who´s been through or is going trough something similar to tell me it´s going to be ok and I dont really need to see a psychiatrist and maybe be friends...help please!... Read More »
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